Nothing is Working Right! blog #2

Christeen Street Studios Weekly Blog

Today is the day! I have educated myself as much as possible by watching countless YouTube videos and conducting never-ending Google searches; I have prepared myself with all the essential tools needed and am 100% ready to create a freaking masterpiece!  Overrun with excitement I dive in. I select and mix my colors methodically with cause, prepare my canvas with care, and euphorically, I pour my colors on the canvas, swirl, and stretch it around. I see life happening right in front of me, an organic reaction of vivid color dancing across the perfectly flat surface. I set down the canvas and allow the euphoria to settle. Masterpiece!  Viola!

Well that is what was going on in my head. In reality, my canvas looked like a muddy mess, like I accidentally dropped multiple buckets of paint on a canvas. No masterpiece here! I ponder, absorb my feelings and think, screw that, I’m learning I’m going to do this 100 times if I have to. Truth be told, I probably did try 100 times to get what I wanted on that canvas. This was also not the last time this would happen to me, and still happens to me. It happens so often I have come accustom to things not going right, and doing a practice run on everything.

It’s frustrating, make you want to pull your hair out and scream times like these that I realize, as long as I am learning something from these failures, they are not failures, but stepping stones that lead me closer to where I want to be. A journey that must be taken to reach the destination. It’s the Yellow Brick Road and I’m Dorothy. My point is; part of growing is failing, picking yourself back up and doing it again until you get it right. So until next week, in the name of New York art critic Jerry Saltz “Don’t stop doing it, do it again, do it 100 times or 1000 times.” Christeen

Reference

Saltz, J. (2018). How to be an Artist. New York Magazine. Retrieved from Vulture. Com

https://www.vulture.com/2018/11/jerry-saltz-how-to-be-an-artist.html

5 thoughts on “Nothing is Working Right! blog #2

  1. Sam says:

    I truly believe that one has not failed until one has quit, so I am glad that you are looking at this like a process. I wonder how many “do-overs” artists like Picasso or Van Gogh had.

    • Christeen says:

      Thank you for reading, subscribing, and commenting. I believe these artists certainly had their share of turbulence. Van Gogh’s story is very grim and sad but what made these artist great is their perseverance and their desire to become better. Picasso made his work about experimenting and learning things he knew nothing about, certainly there were many attempts to get things just right.
      “I am still far from being what I want to be, but with God’s help I shall succeed.” Vincent van Gogh
      “I am always doing that which I can not do, in order that I may learn how to do it.” Pablo Picasso

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